Sunday, December 12, 2004
Do you guys hate it whenever there's nothing to look forward to? And in which you live life just because it has to be lived, since you cant possibly kill yourself. Perhaps i should stop procrastinating and get my homework done.. but argh, I lack the freaking will power.So here am i, whining and grumbling, and I can see myself whining and grumbling over and over again.
It's like I have some super duper cool looking rifle, but there's simply nothing for me to aim at. Yeah, im like wandering around aimlessly. how tragic.With greater hope come greater disappointment. Perhaps i should frame tis phrase and put it up on the wall and remind myself that constantly. I'm a dreamer, yes a dreamer that feels things will go in my way, and that everything will have a sweet ending. Apparently, life doesnt allow things to go in ur way all the time. Especially for me, I guess maybe I should be a loner instead of trying to change. Sorry, those who know me, I tried. Since that day we went to eat at 85 aftetr rock climbing, u guys say i have opened up and spoke up more.
But I guess I screwed up, I have failed miserably. There's nothing but more sadness I feel. Perhaps I should be the old Eugene again. the one that was cold. who didnt care about anything but soccer and his good old Renewal FrostFireX and the people that cared. Maybe I shouldn't have learnt to love. Cause all I get is everything thrown back at me. It takes 2 hands to clap. Like MIRC2'S nick says, "Dont Waste your time at someone who is not willing to waste her time on you". Thanks mel, alan, Leo, tm and whoever that has listened to all my shit all this while. Off i go to play maplestory. Screw all those who msg me on msn, u wanna find me. find me in game.
arenon-livingthingsmoreimportantthanlivingthings?
fanaticme->4:50 PM