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Monday, June 23, 2008

Wake me up inside

These few days of deep thought has really taught me quite a lot of things. Something which is hard to obtain/get may not necessarily be what's best or suitable for you. At the end of the day, it's up to you if you can accept it as it is or rather live moments of regret. One of the examples would be my choice of NUS in place of SMU. Sure, there's loads of competition for a place in SMU and many people will gloat at my foolishness for passing such an opportunity. But I tell you to fuck off cause that's shallow thinking, I think I would end up happier at NUS, a place that would make me feel at home rather than the debate-like atmosphere in smu. Don't get me wrong..SMU isn't a bad school. In fact it could be the best depending on how you see it, but it all goes down to your preference after all. Reiterating my point again, what's hardest to obtain/get may not be the best for you.

Human nature,
indeed a queer queer thing.
Just like how you feel about doing this is perfectly normal,
but it probably isn't to me.
We're never in unison,
I could never agree to your ideals,
you and i could never be.
What's said is already gone and past,
what's not, you could never comprehend,
I've held back and it's come to this.
it's late, too late now.

Today, once again I witness the ugly side of human nature. Some people just do not appreciate the life that they're having now and are perpetually asking for more. "de2 cun4 jing4 chi3", that's the chinese cheng yu to describe it right? Correct me if i"m wrong cause my cheena is f-ed up =/
There's this guy in my bunk who's so freakin lazy to go do simple tasks like area cleaning and even wants to complain/report sick. Apparently, we're already having a luxurious life getting to stay out everyday, with not much stuff to do. Better think again boy, count yourself lucky you're not in the jungle with the insects and animals and that you get to sleep in the comfort of your home every day. Don't ever think its a god-given right that you get to relax every day while your fellow comrades never even hesitate about doing such little petty work. Appreciate what you've got.

Another event was in the mrt today when i was reporting to camp. I'm sure u guys noticed before, when the train door opens everyone rushes for the seat. I'm no exception, though I don't think i want the seat so much such that i appear to others as a typical singaporean, the kiasu-ist attitude that has always been a thorn to Singapore's name. So there was this woman, a WOMAN, mind you, rushing to get a seat. I swear to God, she rushed to the seat as if her pants had a gazillion red ants and she couldnt wait to rest her fat butt to squeeze em all to death. Furthermore, there was this rather elderly man who already "targeted" that seat and was about to sit down. But no, this WOMAN had to shatter his dreams. Then, that woman sat down, folded her arms and gave a smug face like she won the "Olympic Fastest Seat Grabber" award. Two words: Fucked up! _l_ Luckily, that elderly man managed to find a seat. So there it is..

fanaticme->10:10 PM