match ended 2-0 to vjc. was getting ready for a hot match, god knows it rained straight after kick-off. everyone was drenched and the ball skidded on the surface which i freaking hated. Played right wing in first half since Benedict wasn't here yet. First half was rather of damage reducing, trying to get into the game. Only memorable chance i got was when i played a cutting through pass from the right to the centre, only for the keeper to grab it from darren's feet or it would have been 1-0 to us. Then came their free kick. Maybe we should have paid attention to what Nordin told us last time, no matter how sucky a coach he was. We didn't stand infront of the ball and they chose to take a quick free kick, floating the ball past our unexpecting keeper. Lesson learnt again: always block their taker until they're forced to ask for whistle. 2nd half i switched to AM, which i preferred. Central roles are better for me i guess. The last 1/4 of the game we were attacking them, pressing for an equalizer. But we got hit by a sucker punch when they counter-attacked and scored, just like what this same team did to Meridian 2 years ago, if people still remember. 2-0 to them, game over. A rather friendly game, victorians are nice people.
i think i expect too much from myself. and probably of others too. i can't handle the pressure of a million eyes watching me, expecting, wanting. or can i? i wanna be the kind that's able to perform and run to the crowd and celebrate with em. can i take pressure? sometimes it feels like i don't really know myself. i don't know what i want, but somehow something is there that i crave for, yearn for. my flaw is that i want to be as flawless as possible.