Tears are falling from my eyes,
as I sit and cry at night.
blood is dripping from my heart,
as I try to write.
I have so much pain,
I'm hurt a lot,
I can't explain all this,
I'm just falling apart.
no one understands,
I don't know where to start
and I don't know where to end.
love hurts so much,
like a thousand stabbing knives,
especially when you have all this pain,
that you wish you could deny.
I'm so sore right now,
my heart is racing fast,
I wish I could forget all this,
and leave it in the past.
but there will always be a memory,
a memory of us both,
how I loved you so much,
and in my heart I'll hold.
I will always hold this memory
even though you won't care,
and the scar you left in my heart
will always be there.
I remember how i felt when i saw you standing there,
happy with another guy.
how angry i was at the thought of you with another.
i wanted to cry,
i wanted your shoulder to cry on,
i wanted to scream at the top of my lungs.
that's how i felt though,
like i was standing in the middle of a crowded room screaming, but no one even noticed,
not even you.
so jealous at the thought of you in his arms.
i wanted to bash his head into the wall.
i tried to get my friend to take me home,
and just maybe as i got into the car you'd come running out and tell me you didn't want me to go.
He was my friend,
and he also knew how much i loved you.
He told me to stick it out,
act as though i didn't care.
so i tried, i promise i did.
but seeing you with him drove me crazy.
and then we talked.
now i knew why you loved him.
he was perfect,
every damn thing about him was perfect.
then we left after those pain filled hours.
i was finally on my way home. you dropped me off and we said our good-byes.
then you and my friend left.
and i was home,
only to go into my room and cry,
for i was missing you.
And you will never feel the same for me.
you still don get it... don't you? cheryl chin and that unfaithful bastard, still together during january. now... argh, go figure, not my problem anymore. even if he becomes a future leader, nobody will respect him if they know what he did.